The other day I saw through my need to be understood. Historically this desire has been rooted in a somatic sense of threat. Over explaining provided me with a false sense of safety. The safety stems from wanting to control a false narrative, or what I believe to be a false narrative. It’s as if a false narrative somehow threatens my very existence. As if I’ve somehow become trapped and identified with the version of myself that lives in someone else’s mind. This is a misper

For most of my life, I carried a quiet belief that something was fundamentally wrong with me. Before we had language for neurodiversity and learning disabilities weren't as easy to identify, all I had was shame, comparison, and the feeling of being “found out”. What I didn’t know then was that the very thing I feared would one day become a doorway into authenticity, self-acceptance, and freedom. All through school, it felt as if I had to hide a shameful secret, that I was de

At the end of the spiritual process, things become surprisingly simple. Layer after layer falls away until what’s left is soft, innocent, and effortless. Kind of like returning to a state of being newly born into life. People talk a lot about seeing behind the veil, accessing hidden realms, or gaining mystical abilities. Those things can arise along the way, and they can feel exhilarating. I remember that phase. The chaos, the psychic openings, the speed of everything. The eg

Everything we experience is arising and falling within our field of awareness. A thought appears and disappears. A sound comes and goes. A tree sways, a feeling moves through the body, a memory flashes for a moment. All of it is just experience passing through. Coming and going. The past is already gone, it doesn’t exist anymore except as a memory. It’s already come and gone. The future hasn’t arrived yet, so it doesn’t exist either. It’s just imagination. What’s real is only

What stories and meanings have you been attaching to people, places, yourself, and every event of your life? Are those same stories quietly shaping the meaning you assign to every experience you’re having now? What if each time you attached a meaning to something, you stopped to examine several other equally viable interpretations? Would the original story begin to lose its solidity? Would its truth soften? In that softening would you start to see through the illusion of all

If we learn how to authentically and genuinely foster true compassion and unconditional love for all, there’s no more need for self righteous morals or rigid ethics. When compassion and unconditional love are real, we’re naturally moved toward what serves the greatest good, even while accepting everything exactly as it is. It’s like a loving mother who fully accepts her child as they are, yet still offers warmth, connection, and presence. She sees that struggle is necessary f

The last thread dissolves when the ability to believe in the stories and meaning attached to anything fall away. Yesterday, while walking down the street, it occurred to me that I no longer exist. I’ve experienced this in various settings before, but this was different, this felt like the new natural state of being instead of an experience. It occurred to me in this moment that I no longer believe in any story, meaning or belief that could tie an experience to myself, my life

I’ve recently started taking some basic non-dual classes. A few questions seem to come up over and over again, yet the responses I’ve heard often feel like talking in circles. So I thought it might be helpful to talk about them in a simpler way. The first theme is around feeling emotions. In this process we’re called to feel everything fully, but not feed it. Let’s say you’ve had a complicated relationship with a relative and a lifetime of not being able to express how you r

As this whole concept of a mind, heart, and gut awakening settles in, I’m beginning to see how each stage has shaped my experience of relationships and my role within them. The mind awakening came first. It felt vast and open, almost limitless in its clarity. Non-duality made perfect sense on a conceptual level, and the world appeared translucent, almost dreamlike. But it also created a kind of emotional distance. If someone shared something deeply painful, like losing a love

Moving into a more secure attachment style

We tend to walk through life thinking we’re the characters in a movie because we’re deeply invested in the play. Identifying with our thoughts, emotions and the character itself. A whole lifetime of crafting, refining and maintaining the self. When we begin to shed enough layers, the identification loosens. We might begin to realize we’re simply the screen where the movie is unfolding. This open space where everything rises and falls within. Then, even deeper, we recognize we

When the truth of oneness is almost too hard to look at.

An experience of pure awareness

What a Kundalini rising can show us, how it can transform us and how we'll never be the same after it awakens.

Over the cours of our lives we develop sticky thoughts, beliefs and stories. When we remove these webs, we gain freedom.

When our most controlling partner in life is our sense of self.

Surrendering into manifestation

The ego clings to land. Solid, fixed and predictable. Yet truth dances in reflections. Shifting fluidly as consciousness flows.

When we judge, reject, cling, label, or define ourselves and others, we create filters. These filters blur reality, keeping us from truly seeing, genuinely feeling, and authentically embodying the fullness of life as it unfolds. But what if every experience simply moved through us like a wave? When we no longer believe experiences define us, when they carry no meaning about who we are, and when we trust our own capacity to meet them, each moment becomes beautiful. Nothing cli

The crown moves through a tunnel at the speed of light. Where it’s shown everyone perceiving, experiencing and expressing differently and how it’s meant to be this way. How it’s all happening in this very moment. Passing through the tunnel shows more and more people, until everyone on the planet passes by the field. Revealing that everything is exactly the way it’s meant to be, an infinite amount of expressions and experinces, all unique. The heart based version of the same t