When The Last Thread Dissolves

The last thread dissolves when the ability to believe in the stories and meaning attached to anything fall away.

Yesterday, while walking down the street, it occurred to me that I no longer exist. I’ve experienced this in various settings before, but this was different, this felt like the new natural state of being instead of an experience.

It occurred to me in this moment that I no longer believe in any story, meaning or belief that could tie an experience to myself, my life, my existence. There’s nothing left but awareness experiencing an endless series of impersonal experiences.

There’s no more inside or out, no more personal stories, meaning or anything. I’m able to see so clearly how we tie meaning and stories to everything we experience throughout life. The meaning and stories we attach to each event is mostly based in the other stories and meaning we’ve tied to past events. This cycle just continues and continues. None of it is true, it’s simply a way of reinforcing the false self, the false narrative, the sense of separation.

Once this completely collapsed, so did the last thread keeping me separate. A notable shift.