The Mind, Heart and Gut Awakening

As this whole concept of a mind, heart, and gut awakening settles in, I’m beginning to see how each stage has shaped my experience of relationships and my role within them.

The mind awakening came first. It felt vast and open, almost limitless in its clarity. Non-duality made perfect sense on a conceptual level, and the world appeared translucent, almost dreamlike. But it also created a kind of emotional distance. If someone shared something deeply painful, like losing a loved one, I could understand their suffering, but I couldn’t feel into it. There was no emotional resonance, just a clean, spacious awareness that didn’t quite connect to the human experience in a relatable way. It was as if I could perceive truth, but only from above it.

Then the heart opened, and everything softened. Suddenly even the most difficult experiences carried a strange, heartbreaking beauty. Trauma became an opportunity for vulnerability and tenderness. Bliss and grief wove into one another, and it felt like the entire universe lived inside my chest. Tears came easily. Everything felt intimate, meaningful, the love felt almost unbearable. This was the phase where love wasn’t an emotion but a kind of atmosphere, where overwhelming devotional love came in like a tsunami and I couldn’t even say what the devotion was for/to.

The gut awakening surprised me. It doesn’t feel anything like the heart. The body feels heavy, grounded, almost sedated, while the mind is sharper than it has been in months. My connection to emotions feels different, not absent, but no longer overwhelming or sentimental. Food tastes better than it ever has. Sensations are richer, and yet everything feels sober, real, and uncomplicated.

What has changed the most is my relationship to boundaries. During the heart phase, even aggression from others could feel like something to embrace, something to understand or accept. Now I see it clearly without absorbing it. There is a natural instinct to say, “This aligns,” or “This doesn’t,” without guilt or explanation. I can accept people without inviting their chaos into my field. It’s not rejection, just clarity. A sense that my own container has edges. There this clear sense of how things feel in the gut.

This gut space is rooted, discerning, and powerfully quiet. I can witness what people are doing to themselves and one another without collapsing into it or carrying it. I can hold space, but only in ways that don’t compromise my own alignment. It feels like a maturation, a settling into something far more grounded than I’ve ever known. However to date, it feels less magical than the heart awakening.

I’m still learning this territory and what happens when the mind, heart, and gut begin to move cohesively. I understand as these three integrate, the clarity of the mind, the compassion of the heart, and the sovereignty of the gut will eventually form a deeper wholeness. One that can meet life fully without losing itself in the process.

It’s interesting that each centre seems to be coming online one at a time, such distinctly different forms of relating to the world.